goodmorning! so workmode ako ngaion but since 4 rooms lang naman at wala pang umaalis sa mga bisita... dito muna ko sa library para gamitin ung computer nila at mkpg blog habang naghihintay ako na my umalis na bisita... hehe...  at infurnezz sobrang okay dito dahil mabilis ung internet nila... wahaha....so ito na ang kwento...

MARCH 31

stayed at home the whole time... well nkusap ko naman asawa ko nun nung nagising siya pero konti lang din kc my ginagawa siya... inayos niya ung psp ts ng update siya ng phone niya si ACE medjo nagloloko daw kc... so there... tapos ako naman tamang hintay lang din ako ts un nga ng blog lang naman ako ng bongga kahapon... haha... 

pageant na ni bilat kagabi kaso nde na kme nkpunta... late narin kc nakuwi ng bahay si Jem tapos ako naman wala pa tulog so medjo masama din pakiramdam ko... so we decided to stay at home nlng.... pero hindi pa namen nababati si trina at natatanong kung sino na ung bagong Ms. Camilineos... ai sabagay my finals pa nga pla un sabe ni tita Lagi this coming saturday yata or next month ba un... basta nde ko kc matandaan eh. di bale babanggitin naman nila un ulit pg my chance...

tapos nung gabi ngbigay ng pansit and petti sila auntie kc birthday pla ni uncle... so kahit papano my food naman tau sa bahay. di pa nkakabili ng bigas dahil naubos na siya kahapon, pg sinipag ako later at pg wala pa si Jem sa bahay bka ako nlng pumunta ng wing yip para bumili ng bigas namen... infurnezz medjo matagal din naman ung buhay ng bigas.. more than a month din un to think na 20 kilos lang yata un... hehe. sa gabi lang din naman kc kme halos nkakakain ng kanin... baliktad nga eh kya pareho kmeng tumataba ni boi.. haha...

so aun na nga nkusap ko asawa ko kagabi ts konting kwento lng cuz she's still upset with me not coming home... pero sana kahit papano maging ok narin xa... tapos olats pa dahil anong pecha na kagabi, biglang para kong ng LBM.. literal na pabalik balik ako sa cr... buti nlng wala na ung mga bisita nila uncle dun kya kahit papano keri lang... sila kuya eric nlng ung nsa kusina nun at naglalaro ng tong its.. hehe.. 

tapos ngusap kme saglit ng asawa ko mga 3am nko halos nktulog ta bangag mode na tlga un.. pero atleast kahit papano nkusap ko parin baby ko diba... hehe...

APRIL 01

april fools day pla ngaion... tapos andito ko sa hotel medjo maaga din naman kahit papano dumating mga 7:45 andito nko tas mula kanina wala pko nagagawang trabaho dahil wala pa ng check out sa mga guest. dko naman kylngan mg hoover kc nkpg hoover nko nung thursday and for sure si kuya Mitch ng hoover xa kahapon since 4 rooms lang yata xa check out and stay in combine. atleast hindi siya maxado pagod...

tapos kumain lang ako sa room 7 ng cheezee tsaka powerade ts ng check sa reception kung my ng check out na... aun awa ni bro wala pa nga daw umaalis... berigud tlga diba... ts tinignan ko kung my tao dito sa library... minsan kc my forever gumagamit nito eh... adik lang un eh. nde naman xa dito nka check in pero andito lng tlga xa alwaz sa library pg weekend gumagawa ng trabaho niya. sabe ni Tatiana, my sarili daw kc un fob kya nkakapasok kahit nde xa stay in or literal na kahit nde xa nka check in dito sa hotel... ibang klase... haha...

so aun lang naman po, maya nlng ulit pguwi ko bka sakaling my manyare pang iba... sabe ko ky Jem kung maaga xa matatapos sa trabaho niya ngaion, bka pde kme mgkita sa Brent Cross... pero nde pa un sure... depende pa rin xmpre kung sisipagin ako mg byahe pa ulit. para kc ngccrave ako sa auntie anne's pretzel ung jalapeño tsaka almond ts my dip na caramel... panalo un sobra...

so paalam nlng muna... mamaya nlng ulit... tignan natin ano pa pdeng mangyari sa araw na toh... for now... natutulog na ung asawa ko.. kausap ko kc xa kanina... dami na niya antok... pero atleast nagawa niya si ace though ung psp nde niya nabanggit sakin kc naiinis na daw siya either sa psp or sa laptop... hehe. 

happee sunday nlng po kung my nagbabasa man nito... kung wala... happee sunday prin... cheers!

the very first video I made for my baby was over a year ago... I first join the team North Dakota in January 2007. I was scared at first, opener ung team namen... because of that, we alwaz have 30 minutes team meeting before the start of the shift... I immediately noticed her.... Emma Lyn Dames. she was wearing a blouse and a long skirt with slip ons on... she has her long hair down, wearing her glasses and a very beautiful smile... 

of course the team has plotting, and since newbie pko nun, I had to sit beside the tenured agents. she was ahead by one month so technically newbie parin siya... during lunch, I alwaz look for her, and she eats with our teammates Dino and Run... they were her close friends during that time... and as for me, I dont really eat lunch.. I was the shy type and alwaz have coffee during lunch and just stay in the pantry to watch tv... or go back to my station and explore our KMS to learn new things or go over my email for updates... 

after a few months, our team lead decided to have our teambuilding... good for me cuz a week before the teambuilding to Baguio, we have this 1 week plotting... meaning, I get to sit beside her for a week and it made us friends, and we get to talk a little during avail time, ask her questions during read time, same goes with our assessment DOTS... though nahihiya ako, or most of the time I already know the answer I still ask her for the possible answer just to do small talk... or to compare answers.... pero xmpre ung sknya ung tama lagi... haha.. 

so it's time for our team building, xmpre before the fact, I already made an agreement with her that we will be sitting together sa shuttle to Baguio... again, pabor nanaman sakin... before we left since galing kmeng lahat nun sa shift... and we ended the shift at 4:00am... our TL ms. Kat asked me to be with Emma at all times dahil ung isang teammate namen maxadong attached sknya. so we were roommates and we were together all the time... literal na partners kme sa lahat sort of a buddy system... we went out drinking that night since overnight lang naman un. I think the Bedroom ung name nung bar na pinuntahan namen that time. basta lagi lang kme mgkatbi nun never kame naghiwalay... and believe me I wish that night would never end... 

pagbalik sa hotel, it was called Pines View Hotel... so we were sharing the room though separate beds naman un... nung nsa room na kme, I asked her to massage my head pretending to have a headache... she did but then nalagyan niya ko ng katinko sa mata... haha! so she helped get it off, and she went back to her bed.... ts bumangon ako and took her pillow just to be playful.. tapos agawan ng konti... haha... I told her na dun nalang ako matutulog sa bed niya pretending that I was scared... she agree... kaso hindi ko rin naman tinuloy...

I was sitting beside her bed... looking at her... she was looking at me... I stroke her hair and told her goodnight... I lean forward to her I wanted to kiss her... kaso the thought of her not talking to me again made me stop. so I went back on my bed and tried to sleep... pero xmpre was not able to do so... I watched her sleep the whole night... 

morning came, I got up, went to shower and get dressed... then I kneel beside her bed and woke her up so she can prepare dahil pupunta pa kme ng market to buy stuff before heading back to manila at noon. 

after all that, we went to the market buy stuff, kmeng dalawa magksama... I held her hand... sobrang lambot ng kamay niya, it was the greatest feeling ever! after namen mabili lahat, we went back to the hotel, had breakfast... the good thing about her is that... whatever she do, normal lang lahat, no need to pretend.... I had a huge crush on her... 

on our way to Manila, ngstop over kme sa pangasinan to have lunch... then her bf at the time was in pangasinan too. so she asked me if it would be fine if she ask TL kung pde sumabay samen ung guy pabalik ng manila... I told her "why not" but at the back of my mind I hated the idea... then I said... "ok lang naman siguro un, kaso pano si Dino... baka lalong magmaktol un pag sinabay mo pa un satin pabalik ng manila..." then as expected she said.. "oo nga... yaan ko na nga lang..." hehe... so it worked... no worries na... so hop on back sa shuttle..

habang nsa byahe, she fell asleep on my lap, and I was supporting her, sort of hugging her para hindi siya malaglag since borlogz nga siya nun... I was holding her hand the whole time.... and again... the greatest feeling of all!

after ng Baguio trip, mas naging close kme, sakto naman na ng resign na si Run... so we ended up having lunch together with our other friend Guia... tapos after shift kain ulit kme kya kahit konti nlang tulog keri lang... since alam kong natutulog siya sa ofis, maaga ko pumapasok so I'll be the one to wake her up and we go to our bay together.... 

naging close kme, we text, then I pop the question if she's open with same sex relationship and she said no... that she dont see herself in that kind of situation or relaitionship... all good naman un sakin... atleast friends kme. tapos we talk about her crush and this weak sauce guy from work na puro pacute lang naman ang alam... 

November that year, I got promoted to SME or RepAssist so I had to move out from the team and be with a new LOB... pero mas lalo kme naging close that time... kahit hindi kme same ng off, basta last day nila... we would go to glorietta and watch movie... at first tatlo kme nila Guia, then eventually naging kmeng dalawa nalang ung nanood ng movie... 

Jan. 17, 2008 we watched Alvin and the chipmunks... just the two of us... and that was when I gather up the courage and kiss her.... and to my surprise she kissed me back... I was about ready to die that day... sobrang saya ko tlga... then we alwaz see each other, I would pick her up pg log out na niya since closer xa nun ako opener... so what I do is, pg log out ko, I would wait for their first break to be with her, then uwi ako... tulog... wake up at 12 and pick her up sa ofis... snack ts hatid ko xa sa baclaran... then we'll do the same thing the following day except on wed kc baclaran day un so we go there together....

people in the office and our former teammates started to notice how close we are... and our former POC Jen... who was promoted to workforce pop the question to us.. "magkasama nanaman kayo..... kayo na ba..." and we both answer "oo kme na... nde mo alam...." grabe smile kung smile ako nun then I look at her and she was smiling at me... then we talk and since Jan 17, 2008 ung first kiss namen... and that made it technically official.... naging steady na kme... 

being with my wife is greatest thing that ever happen to me... I love my baby soooo much.... and I will do everything... anything... to be with her... and I will do my best to make her fall in love with me over and over again... just like the movie 50 1st dates.... 

a lot of things happened to us... I'm not perfect... she's not perfect either... but together... we are perfect.... she is my one true love, my soulmate, my friend, my bestfriend, my crazy girl.... My one and only WIFE!!! I love you sooo much baby!!!!

on our way to Baguio....

at Pines View Hotel with the team...

borlogz ung asawa ko and Ms. Jen....

before going out... at Baguio...

team Lunch...

Market market... lunch before going to anjillian's place...

libis... INTUIT sports fest...

at the GYM... with my wife's teammates...

and for the very first video I made for my wife.... this is our love story... and on the background is our song... When I met you by APO... I love you sooo much asawa ko.....

this is not enough to express how much I miss my wife.... but I really do... mahal na mahal kita Emma Lyn Dames!!!

I made this Video few months ago... I just had to post it here... I miss her soooo much.... I Love my wife and she means the world to me.... life is meaningless without her.... 

too tired to blog, but will do it now... 

MARCH 29

woke up early for work... well sort of early... 7:00am dapat start nko so I can leave at 1:00pm. Instead, I woke up at 7:00.. mabilisang prep lang then alis ng 7:30, dumating sa hotel ng 8:00am... at tamang asar lang kc full house! I had to celan 5 rooms for check out and 5 rooms for stayin plus the two common toilet. so I did all that... buti nlng din maaga ng check out ung mga guest so I was able to finish early. 

since almost over nko sa data usage ko, I stayed in the hotel to use wifi.. hehe.. so I was able to talk with my wife kahit papano. medjo matagal din naman so it was cool... hearing my baby's voice makes my day alwaz! I alwaz ask her to send me pictures kc cuz that is the best way for me to relax.... kahit gano kapagod dahil sa trabaho, nwawala lahat basta nakikita ko smile ng asawa ko... I love her sooo much...

when it was time for her to go to work, that's when I left and went home... after sa hotel had nothing more to do so I stayed home usap kme ng asawa ko.... tapos nung gabi we had our post - mother's day dinner with out titas... tita Malou, tita Lagi, tito Dolly. 

original plan was to eat at Basil, kaso sabe ni tita Lagi sa Speedy noodles nlng daw dahil mas maraming choices so we go there... I told my baby who we're with and I called her up... nka hang lng ung fon pra kasama din xa... 

after dinner, we walk home to kingsgate... tapos Jem and I had a chance to talk to our tito Dolly kc napansin namen na my problema xa and she has no one to talk to about it. so we stayed sa mini park sa queensgate near her place and chatted for almost an hour... just the 3 of us... 

after that talk medjo naging ok din naman xa... so we all decided to go home and call it a night since malamig narin hanging... paguwi relax lng konti ts usap ko asawa ko pero chat lang cz I can't call her dahil nga sa over use of data. after that natulog narin agad kc my work pa the following day...

MARCH 30

woke up early 7:30, took a bath, prep... ts since maaga pa nanood muna ko ng tv and had my morning coffee and smokes... left at 8:45 since 9:00am pa naman ung work ko at wala naman tao sa bahay pgdating ko... 

when I got at Ms. Veronica's place... wala ng tao ts ung tv naiwan nila nka on as alwaz... good enough nsa disney channel ung tv nila tapos wizards of waverly place marathong ung palabas.... grabe its been a year since I last watched disney channel... so medjo natagalan ako sa paglilinis ng sitting room nila dahil nanonood din ako ng tv. 

dahil kakalinis ko lang din naman dun last wed, nde pa ganon kadumi ung house so medjo mabilisang linis lang din ung ginawa ko.. mostly tidy up and watch more TV... hehe

at 11:30am I started to call my baby since my wifi naman dun pra gisingin ko narin xa, kaso sabe ng asawa ko she can't talk dahil ung pamankin daw niya umiiyak pag nakikita ung fone dahil gusto niya hiramin to play so we cant talk... kaso nde rin naman xa maxado nkktext dahil prep din xa and medjo upset...

after cleaning umuwi narin ts stay lang sa bahay.. I tried to talk to my wife but she is upset because it's almost april. and I was suppose to come home by end of this month. cguro I misunderstood the last conversation that we had...

her friend Farisha messaged me asking about UK, work, salary and such... xmpre my wife knows my password and I also told her about the conversation that faring and I had so she read it.... 

after reading it sabe ng asawa ko sakin, "ayaw ka na pauwiin ni farisha..." sabe ko naman... "oo nga eh, pero uuwi naman ako..." then my wife said, "my point naman xa eh, marami ka pa dapat bayaran..." sabe ko naman.. "un nga po eh, plus gusto ko parin ituloi ung flat natin since un naman tlga ang reason bakit ako umalis. for us to have our own place..." ts sabe ng asawa ko... "opo nga eh, kung di ka parin uuwi at matatagalan ka pa jan... susubukan ko nalang siguro ulit ung SG since I stopped looking for job when we get back together..." xmpre I got upset dahil ayoko naman na umalis xa na hindi ako ang kasama...

sabe ko sa asawa ko.. "cge ganito nalang... kung gusto mo tlga umalis for SG, mgipon tayo ng konti, jz enough for us to go to SG... both of us, sabay tayo aalis... I will also try to ask friends na andun na kung ano sitwasyon..." then she said... "kung my magandang opportunity na dumating at pde ko dun, I'll grab it... sayang din kc ung time na andito lang ako waiting for you... plus kung ok dun, sumunod ka nlang atleast my idea na tayo..." sabe ko naman... "NO! sabay tayo aalis... nde ako papayag na mauuna ka pumunta dun dahil mahirap ang buhay sa abroad, kahit pa sabihin mo na malapit lang ang SG..." so that's that...

sad part is, whenever my wife remembers na uuwi na dapat ako... plus ung mga nagawa kong kasalanan... she gets really upset and calls me "Tanya"... and to be honest I hate it! i know it's my fault why she's like that, and proving myself to her and earning her trust wont be that easy... but I will never give up... I did a lot of stupid things in my life... and the only good thing that happened to me is her... Emma Lyn Dames... 

I lost her before, and life was hell... I hurt her a lot before... and I swear I will never ever hurt her again... mahal na mahal ko asawa ko and I will do anything... everything for her... the only thing now that upsets her most is me not coming home early.... as much as I wanted to go, I can't.... marami pko dapat bayaran... wala pang savings... 

I told my baby that I will come home december before christmas... I will be with her... para kahit papano my savings ng konti, atleast pguwi ko nde nman ako magiging pabigat... plus I will try to go back to IBM and compromise with them... since they sent me a letter saying that I owe the company 15k before I left... I disagree with that, but if that will help me get my job back then I'll work for them with no salary for a month... even 2 mos... kakayanin basta sana same account with my baby... 

MARCH 31

I havent slept yet... I was waiting for my wife to send me a message or something... pero wala prin, ng reinstall ako ng viber bka sakaling my msg xa na nde ko narcve lang.. but still nothing... not even a message on FB or wall post from her... it really is hard pg nde niya ko pinapansin... nkakapraning ung feeling to be honest... 

I often think of just killing myself lalo na pag alam ko na nasasaktan xa whenever she's hunted by what I did.... she don't deserve to be hurt like that... she's not perfect, but it doesn't mean that I can hurt her like that. mahal na mahal ko asawa ko at ayoko mawala xa sakin.... 

I alwaz pray na sana my dumating na good job opportunity for me so we can save quicker and I can go home as soon as possible... 

still waiting for my baby.... sobrang miss na miss ko na xa... 

was not able to update yesterday cuz I had to scan Jem's laptop... hehe.... =p so here goes....

MARCH 27

woke up at 9:00, check my phone for my baby's message... then saw Khat's text asking if I can work for her from 2:30 - 8:30pm.. wala kc kasama si Jeuz... since wala naman ako gagawin I accepted the job... besides almost 2 weeks ko narin nde nbabantayan si pogi, nkkmiss din ung bata na un kalaro... 

so umalis ako sa bahay ng 2:00pm, kaso my diversion pra ang 316 bus so medjo natagalan ako ng byahe, tapos pgdating ko ng harrow road naiwan pko ng bus 18 so kylngan ko pa ulit mghintay ng mga 5-10 mins... dumating ako saknila 2:40 na, tapos si Khat pla ung naiwan kc closer daw xa... pgdating ko dun bihis narin si Jeuz... everytime kc na ako mgbabantay sknya we make it a point na lumabas at pumunta ng park kahit saglit lang pra lng kahit papano mg enjoy si pogi dun...

so sumabay kme sa momi niya palabas.... tapos xmpre nung wala na momi niya medjo umiyak pero buti nlng na divert ng konti ung attention niya... hehe...=p my nkita kmeng "wish" so nglaro kme ng konti tapos pumunta na kme sa playground ts laro ng bongga... hehe... we stayed for almost 2 hrs, tapos nung medjo marami ng kids we decided to leave...

pguwi nglaro kme ng konti ts eat ts movie ts laro ulit... ts dumating si kuya Eric ng saktong 8:30 ts umalis nko since late na... hehe... so there.. that was my day yesterday... 

Jeuz pogi....

March 28

early work for today... regular cleaning job sa golders green ky Ms. Veronica. woke up at 7:45am, prep narin ts nood muna ng tv bago umalis... 9:00am andun nko kila Ms. Veronica at walang tao... hehe... so mabilisang linis ang nanyare... 9:00 - 3:00 dapat un, but since walang tao mabilis lng ako nkalinis ng buong bahay. 

11:30 ginising ko na asawa ko tapos usap kme sa viber ng medjo matagal lng din ng konti pero kylngan rin ibaba ung phone kc prep na rin xa ts ako naman kylngan ko na mglinis ng toilet at mg hoover ng stairs pra mkaalis na rin... natapos ko ung buong bahay ng 1:30... tapos umalis nko.. nkuwi ako ng 2:00pm ts pahinga lng ng konti. bumaba kme ni dude ng mga 3:30 kc dapat mgpp cornroll kme... kaso sobrang mahal pla nun... 40 pounds pero matagal naman daw un kc aabot xa ng hanggang 4 mos.... hehe... pero nde na namen tinuloy.

since bigo ung cornroll punta na kme ng sainsbury at bumili ng kandila tsaka coke mini.... ts puntang iceland pra bumili ng chocolate (MARS) pambaon, kape, heinz bolognese petti, nuggets n fish fingers pra my ulam kahit papano.. hehe...=p

nung umakyat na kme ulit dito sa bahay usap ko na forever nun asawa ko...  salamat sa technology at forever ko nakkusap asawa ko... hehe.. usap lng kme kaso headache ako ng bongga kc medjo mainit na literal... so habang usap kme sabe ko sknya sleep muna ko... pero nde ko na binaba ung fone kaso lng nagising ako wala na asawa ko... 

pggising ko text kme ng asawa ko ts team meeting daw sila, so wet ko lng asawa ko after nila meeting usap kme ng asawa ko saglit lang kasi nawawala na ung signal not sure kung sakin ba un or sknya pero feeling ko sakin... hehe..

ts ngtext ung tmobile saying na malapit na daw ako ng mgexcess sa data usage ko... so wa muna data usage maxado sa phone... hehe... ung wifi kc dito sa bahay adik lang nde pde sa fon ko... nddetect pero walang data... labo lang....

ts nung lunch na asawa ko mgkatext kme... sobrang dami kong smile sa msg niya eh... hehe... mahal na mahal kita asawa ko sobra po!!!! 

oh ha... asawa ko na ang sweetest ever!!!!! pano dito na muna... pecha narin eh.. usap pa kme ng asawa ko habang pauwi xa... I Love You Emma Lyn Dames Mosqueda!!!